09.02.07 {depression hurts}

Depression. I try my best to hide it, but many of ya’ll know about my struggle. I’ve had good years and bad years as I’ve gone through doctors, countless medications, prayer counselors, psychologists, psychiatrists, small groups, friends… There are definitely lots of days when I can’t function and don’t want to live anymore. After 8 years of riding the depression roller coaster, I’m just so tired.

I do have hope in God's bigger plan. I do have a joy that my life does have meaning and purpose. But moving forward everyday is still hard. If ya’ll would please keep me in your prayers this week as I am trying yet another treatment to help me be able to function every day. I’ll be admitted to Emory Hospital next week for a clinical trial involving deep brain stimulation. Thanks.

On a lighter note, I’ve run some 5k’s recently! I traveled with Lou Anne & John to the mountains of Maggie Valley North Carolina to run a “moonlight 5k” and the next weekend ran with my fellow Fit Wit boot campers in the Grant Park 5k. Running is getting slightly easier, but I am still having a hard time running more than 2-3 miles for everyday training. Here are my newbie running times thus far:

Race :: Distance :: Time :: Pace
Fit Wit Mile :: 1mile :: 7:09 :: 7:09
Peachtree Road Race:: 10k :: 60:00 :: 9:40
Maggie Valley :: 5k :: 26:26 :: 8:31
Grant Park :: 5k :: 25:23 :: 8:11