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Don't let anyone ever tell you you're not strong enough; don't let people constrict you, you're brave enough to defy the ties that bind you. You're a fortress, and no one can ever take that away from you.

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shot with James and Grace yesterday!! it was awesome and we shot some awesome concepts! go over to their streams and check it out! i stayed over my friend's house the night before, too, and i saw a lot of my friends last night, and i hung out one on one with one of my good friends today, and on thursday and friday i spent a lot of time with one of my other good friends, and on top of that all of you guys have been so supportive to me, so this weekend has really restored lost vigor. thank you all so much for all of your support, i have no idea what i could do without you all.

before and after on my facebook page!

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I am going on a service trip to Montana to help build schools for the Blackfeet native american nation with my school this summer and I am raising money by doing portrait work and selling prints! please consider buying one, all of the money goes directly towards supplies and paint and tools, etc., as the people we are doing service with have no tools themselves--we supply them! And it is up to myself and my fourteen other tripmates to raise money! So please, go over to my Facebook and buy a print for a good cause!

thank you so SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH for all the support on the last photo. i'm starting to put all the pieces back together again and smile more and you guys are a large factor of that. you guys are amazing in every single way, thank you to all of you who reached out and supported me.

this concept was the first based around working my way back. the beginning of a climb--the toil of the ascent.

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it's really late but i intend on writing more here tomorrow morning about the shoot and such and i have some thanks in order so i'll update it soon! i have a ton of uploads coming up so i'll be in all of your faces for awhile. love you all so much, i can never say it enough

also yeah there are some blaring stitching mistakes but i manually stitched like 14 shots so i'm not sure how much i care bahahaha

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I am going on a service trip to Montana to help build schools for the Blackfeet native american nation with my school this summer and I am raising money by doing portrait work and selling prints! please consider buying one, all of the money goes directly towards supplies and paint and tools, etc., as the people we are doing service with have no tools themselves--we supply them! And it is up to myself and my fourteen other tripmates to raise money! So please, go over to my Facebook and buy a print for a good cause!

all i've been doing lately is falling apart. today was the first day i shot a concept in 16 days... i can't do school anymore, i can't do work anymore, i can't do it all anymore. i keep being let down by people, and i can't stand being alone at my house just staring at the ceiling waiting for tears that never come.

i can't breathe inside these lines anymore, i can't do it. i miss you all so much and photography is all i need but i haven't been able to connect with it because i've been feeling too down in the dumps lately to do anything.

my best friend doesn't realize how much i need him right now and i just can't take it and i want to get in his face and tell him how much it angers me that he's not here when i need him most, but i don't have the gall to do that. so i'm just gonna sit here and mope. but hopefully this can help get my feelings out.

it became apparent to me that a majority of my recent photos have recorded my falling. i'm still at that nadir, at that lowest point, that i titled my last picture about. i can't get up again... i can't get up, and i struggle every day and i always feel a smile coming on but i always sink back down to where i was the night before. i want to get up, i really do, but i need some help, i think, for once. sometimes i can't do this stuff on my own. normally i'm fine, normally i can walk into the woods and help myself breathe again but my life is shattering and i'm not strong enough to pick up the pieces.

hopefully this photo will mark a change, that i'll realize that i've stopped falling because i can't go any lower and the only way to go is up. i need someone so badly to help me through this and i'm so grateful for all of you, because all of you have helped me more than anyone i know has from home. i'm sorry i was gone for so long but i was trying to get my mind back together again.

junior year is too much pressure. i'm crumbling, i seriously am.

but it's not my nature to give up, so i fight on, every day, i fight on.

love you all so much.

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i hate working with lights inside my house at night but i haven't been getting home before dark at all in the last three weeks, save a few days here and there, so excuse the grain and the iffy contrast. i would rather be outside exploring but i'm never home enough to see the sun, always at work or at school or at rehearsal. blargh

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i started doing print sales on my facebook! please check it out if you get a chance :)

In the darkness I could feel the wind playing with the candlelight; I feared the scent of charcoal at the lights' extinguishing, and I trembled at the idea of succumbing to the darkness... As the darkness came closer desperation descended upon me, and hope felt so far...

You start to give up after being pushed down again and again, but there's always that voice, that hope, so you get back up, you always get back up. But this time I swear I could feels the stars breaking for this one moment, and I felt myself stop sinking--

There was nowhere left to fall.

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view it on black, please.
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nadir -- noun: the lowest point.

i took this shot as a test shot in ISO 4000, and intended on turning the ISO down to 3200 and setting it to a slower shutter speed, but I was losing light a lot faster than I anticipated, and none of my images matched this one, so I just stuck with the test shot. so excuse the grain. though I do like it to a certain extent--maybe there is more than i intended, but oh well. you learn from your mistakes, i guess.

way behind on flickr mail and formspring and stuff, so please excuse my absence. school's been tough on me this week. hope you all are well :)

************** Bumped this up because I have opened print sales on my facebook page! I am going on a service trip to Montana to help build schools for the Blackfeet native american nation with my school this summer and I am raising money by doing portrait work and selling prints! please consider buying one, all of the money goes directly towards supplies and paint and tools, etc., as the people we are doing service with have no tools themselves--we supply them! And it is up to myself and my fourteen other tripmates to raise money! So please, go over to my Facebook and buy a print for a good cause!

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(view it large, please)

Heaven's denial made the men fall hard... lost and alone they followed darkness in grey alleys in an attempt to procure hope--but once you're falling... you're bound to hit the ground, hard.

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In the darkness sirens blare and flames fall high, ice and panic and desperation descend upon the world. No star can help you now, all you have is the night, your heart, and your legs to keep you above water...

No one knows exactly when Night will fall, but it's coming, it's coming some day; it is unforgiving and demeaning and terrifying-- We all must fight the darkness, we must resist the inevitable fall. With each other as our beacons we walk the night sky. We are each others' pharos--we, alone, cannot stand...

So we walk the abyss together tonight.

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experimenting.
can't decide if i like the square or the 5x7 crop better--opinions?

easily the best shoot of my entire time as a photographer, i'm pretty sure. and i spent it with four of my closest friends so it was especially great. we were in a parking lot which had a huge sign saying "NO TRESPASSING" and we had walked through town with three huge chairs and a stool and we got so many weird looks, we loved it. haha.

before&after on my Facebook page.

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