TessOlivia,'s photostream  

Yay! Explored;P #158.
thanks so much guys!!:D

I know I'm late and I'll do a catch up photo sometime this week:) Almost finished! wow, the year went by really quick. Its had its ups and it's downs. But overall good:)

Anyways, pay no attention to my knee in the photo xD ahahaha.

I wanted something more vintage and elegant looking but I definitely over edited.:/
I shouldn't have added so much extra white around the edges. ahhwell.

Anyways, those lashes are real! No mascara. But I will admit to a SLIGHT photoshop darkening;P to make them look a tad fuller. But the legnth is real. no harm done;) anyways, I'm heading out with a friend to grab a bite.

Tootles flickr!

"You wanna see me disappear? Well so do i..."

So... sometimes (like today and many other days) I just wanna walk away from photography. It gets frustrating at times. Suffering from extreme perfectionism the satisfaction I get after finishing a photo is not nearly worth the hours and hours on end I spend trying to perfect that photo. Its aggravating.

Another things that just kinda makes me wanna just walk away is getting all excited about posting a photo to Flickr and sitting waiting for comments and views. (which is so silly But I do it anyways.)

We all just want to be accepted by everyone else. We like praise. And since one of my dominant love languages is words of affirmation I crave those accepting words from people. It doesn't justify asking for people to praise me. That's just silly and even if I do when they do praise me I always think 'they're only saying that because I guilt tripped them to say those things'. I can never win xD

Anyway, what I was trying to say is it gets discouraging seeing all these people get 30x comments and some photos are kinda.. well mediocre. These people aren't even apart of groups! And I work my ass off and sit there all excited and get 4 comments after adding my photo to like 40 groups. I know this is quite childish but its just something that kinda discourages me.

And why am I telling you this? No fkkn idea. I'm not usually one to open up to people. xD

So.. not a fan of this edit. Too harsh. (there's my perfectionism) I miss being this skinny. I took this in August and waited for the right time to post, aka forgot about it. But since nothing I took today I liked I scanned through some old photos and this was PERFECT for my mood today.

blah.

Agh, as of lately I've had chronic headaches. Its only been about a week and a half but every morning I'll wake up with a moderate headache. It will linger sometimes fading but it usually comes back.

Its quite annoying.

But anyways, your not reading this to hear me complain. xD

So instead I'm going to fill this section with a positive quote bold smiley face:

"Laughter is the tranquilizer with no side effects."
Arnold Glasgow

:)

Happy Wednesday Guys!

Only a few more weeks left. And most likely I'll probably start another project because it give me incentive to take and upload photos. :P

Anyways, I also REALLY liked this inverted. It really makes the lines on my skin stand out so I might add that in comments or even upload it some other time desperately. xD thats how much I like it! ahaha.

So pardon the shit editing, there are some things that I just can't do yet with photoshop. I'm still learning. :)

I really wanna get out and take more photos. I just need some people to model and some other creative ideas thrown in with mine. Its best that way. <3

Tootles guys.

And we'll all float on any way, well...

So... this is my first levitation photo. xD Can ya tell?!

I'm pretty content with it.. and the say.. 4 hours of work behind it. blah.

Overexerted myself while trying to get the right photo. Not fun.
With my illness (ME, CFS) Its like i can't do ANYTHING physically exercise wise lately. Its so depressing. and tiring D;

Speaking of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome/ Myalgic Encephalomyelitis I'm trying to find others who has this or an auto-immune disease who might wanna talk. Its hard for friends to understand exactly what I'm going through.

So i mean, if anyone here knows someone in the Flickr community please point me their way, or visa verse.

I'm still alive. Atleast i can say that much xD

tootles guys.