May 24, 2011.
Having heavy conversations about the furthest constellations of our souls
Remember the time you first wondered about the true meaning of life?
That moment, when you felt a little more grown up than you usually do; that moment, when you first began to believe in intellectual conversations; that moment, when you realized the world was much more complicated than you had ever known.
That was the exact time, when you asked yourself the reason for your existence. The purpose to why you were here. Why you were even created, and why you happen to be standing upon this earth. Why you are the way you are. And somewhere in the back of your mind, you also wondered why you weren't like the person you aspired to be. A nagging vein of bitterness, a slight tinge of jealousy, that cold flash of envy.
Because you had an epiphany. It dawned on you that there were people who had it much better than you do.. but there was no explanation why.
Watching the seasons fall as leaves turn red again, then brown, then gently fall off; and return in spring; watching the cars pass by on the wet roads with rain lashing against the windows; watching the people walking by, each one more indifferent to you than the last. And you still haven't found the answer to why you are here, but time is gliding by with each breath that you take.
Perhaps there isn't a clear indication for your existence. Perhaps, you don't think you belong. Perhaps, just perhaps, you believe that no one cares. What you don't think of, is the impact you've already created. All you can think of is what you haven't done.
That girl with the shy smile and the hesitant expression, the one you always smile at when you pass her on the way to class. That stranger on the street with the jaded look, who somehow manages to show the faintest hint of a smile, when he sees you holding up a camera and trying to take a picture of what seems ordinary to everyone else, but is magical to you. The salesgirl with the tired eyes and pale sighs, who lights up when you say the simplest 'Thank you' while the other customers treat her with careless orders and annoyed beckons.
You don't have to look for the meaning of your life.
All you have to do is look for the meaning that you're creating.
Light leak credits go to the amazing Colton