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i used to tell myself it wasn't possible but now i believe i really do think i am too scared to be too completely happy because something bad will always happen and it crushes everything good because it just is too overpowering and it just makes me more terrified for the future and if i could change it believe me i would and i don't want to live like this anymore

i guess it's obvious to all of you flickr and i are not compatible at this time in my life
i'm trying but i'm drowning
sorry
i'll check in every now and then though
don't forget me

film//sooc
south street-magic garden

my stomach is in knots and i can't breathe and God i'm just so sorry i did this to you because i'm shaking so much i can feel my bones breaking like glass underneath my hunter green pumping-too-hard veins that are suddenly much too visible but still hiding behind my paper thin skin but there's red, so much red, and there shouldn't be so i couldn't even tell you why its so vividly there in such plain view and maybe i'm just crazy but dear God i don't even know what crazy is anymore and if i could figure it out i would tell you but Jesus i think i may have fallen too deep to "suffer" anymore and i just can't fathom what i've done to you and i'm so sorry and i think i'll go now because i feel a bit dizzy so maybe i'll lie down and the shakes will follow and everything will settle and i'll see you on the other side and i'm so sorry and i wish you well.

philly///south street | magic gardens
sooc, film

dear everyone who takes my writing or photos and puts it on tumblr without credit: can you please at least ask me? thanks.

the center of the real world.

film, sooc
philly, south street's magic garden. click for more info
this place is really cool. i love center city philly a lot.

guys, i need your help.
i am considering possibly doing a print sale. with my parents divorcing, money is really, really tight, with lack/loss of jobs, and i am just trying to pitch in as much as i can to help support my mom in any way, shape, or form. i can't depend on her or my dad like i used to, and i'm desperate to scrounge up any money i can to be supportive.
i'm playing around with this idea in my head, but please please let me know if you are at least interested so i can see how many people are willing! it would mean the world to me, and to my mom. thanks in advance.

PLEASE READ THIS.

i am sorta, kinda, maybe, trying to be back!
i am so sorry i was gone for so long.
between my parents getting a divorce, just starting high school with not only the insane loads of homework i get, but dealing with everything it comes with, and virtually only going out to shoot solely for my photography class, i've been so tied up; but, i just got this roll developed from when i went to south street in philly with my dad, so i'll have quite a bit (of somewhat repetitive) pictures to "hold me over" until i get a scanner to scan my prints from class (or get my negatives developed professionally.)

i think that's about all i need to say.. i really miss it here, though. i miss you guys and your streams and your comments, and i'm regretful i haven't made more time for all of you! it's just been a little hectic around here. i'm trying to get back into the swing of things, but i hope no one forgot me.

film, sooc

ps: i am considering possibly doing a print sale. with my parents divorcing, money is really, really tight, and i am just trying to pitch in as much as i can to help support my mom in any way, shape, or form. i'm playing around with this idea in my head, but let me know if you are interested.

sooc, film

sorry i have been so spotty
i am attempting to get back on track
i am so busy

there is new film coming
i finish processing it today
and i have another roll almost ready to be developed

hang in there
^directed at both you and i
i am so busy.