letting it go
all i wanted to do was talk. that's it. nothing more, nothing less. to ask a few questions, clear things up, then move on. all i needed was an hour or two of your time. that's it. it's been almost three months, and way too many "maybe's." apparently, that time was nowhere to be found. is nowhere to be found. not for me, anyways. i guess i wasn't worthy of it. not anymore.
but you know what? i give up. i can't do this to myself anymore. i can't stress out over this. no. more. you don't have to worry about it. not that i think you ever did. but who knows?
i'm letting it go.
when or if you can find the time, you know where to find me. we see each other almost every day. i see your eyes, and i know you know. you know that this is in my head. i'm not even sure if you'll see this, but no matter. this is for me. i care about you. but this is for me.
i'm letting it go.
Comments and faves
Here's Kate (69 months ago | reply)
*mwah*
B I R D (69 months ago | reply)
the water gets colder
the deeper you go
it can be chilling
or refreshing
we have seen
everything here from
heartbreak to jelly beans
your honesty is refreshing
my goodness the stories you tell
something seriously special
in this, touching and
eerie, shot through with mystery
and yet exposed to the light of day
like a mime holding a pose
be well step on the cape
and not the puddle
the water gets colder
the deeper you go
B I R D
Poem Copyright
©2006, Frederick D. Perry, All Rights Reserved
Big slow hug for you
emdot (69 months ago | reply)
here for you, miss e. xx oo
tsmyther (69 months ago | reply)
I have no idea what you're going through, but there are folks here who care very much about you. I'm one of them.
JKönig (69 months ago | reply)
oh baby. letting go is so hard, but so liberating, to finally realize you don't have to carry the pain around anymore.
you deserve more.
*hugs*
cmerow (69 months ago | reply)
*hugs*.. big ones...
Linda B (Wine Diva) (69 months ago | reply)
*hug* from me, too.
Jon . [deleted] (69 months ago | reply)
I know I just "met" you, but there's something about this that resonates.
You're not alone in this.
Hryck. (69 months ago | reply)
Take care, it'll get better.
jamelah (69 months ago | reply)
Hugs, yo.
And this is a great sp.
buttershug* (69 months ago | reply)
:(
(((((((((((((e))))))))))))))
auntnanny (69 months ago | reply)
someone once said that it's not the letting go that hurts, it's the holding on. i'm on your side, honey. love ya.
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O Caritas (69 months ago | reply)
Boy, I know this one all too well! Letting go is never easy, but once you've done it, everything makes sense. More well wishes from afar...
Lynn_L (69 months ago | reply)
ugh! hanging on can be so hard. so is letting go. but letting go is soo much better. hugs to you ms. e. :)
Linda's Many Muses (69 months ago | reply)
Aw, sweetie.
Do what's best for Esther.
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TheSteffers (69 months ago | reply)
You know smiley SPs are great, happy Sps are appreciated, however I think the interesting ones are when we are going through something. Not saying that sad ones are the ones that are more interesting ones. Honest ones are. The ones that come from an honest place. This reminds me of one of my favorite sayings...what I say when I am done with something...
"This will not do...anymore"
Fabulous SP Esther! Just Fabulous! and you will get through this. Es always do!!! So do Ps and Qs an Rs and Ws...
Velvet G (69 months ago | reply)
You have to do what's best for you and sometimes, we have to find the answers for ourselves. I'm sorry you're going through it, but yes... letting go is hard, but it's quite often the best course of action.
You deserve to be happy. It's hard to do when you have something weighing on your heart. Hang in there.
edwardjackman (69 months ago | reply)
hey Esther....I can certainly empathize with you and I admire your strength in baring yourself like this.
this takes courage....even more so to own it, live it and then let go of it. Sending you positive thoughts and...as cliche as it sounds....hoping time will help you through.
e.
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Esther17 (69 months ago | reply)
*looks around*
*smiles*
wow. thank you. honestly, that's about all i can think to say. thank you so, so much.
also, i'm good, really, i am. even better knowing that you've got my back. big hugs and love for all y'alls. :-)
p.s. this photostream will return to it's regular insanity soon. all the photos i had planned for last night kinda got pushed to the wayside with this clearing of the mental cobwebs. ;)
deadeyebart a.k.a Brett (69 months ago | reply)
Glad you're back up on top of things, Esther. Don't know how I missed the party. Belated HUG.
Sidereal (69 months ago | reply)
*hug*
Esther17 (69 months ago | reply)
*hugs jack and brett back*
thanks, guys. :)
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Puff Dragon (69 months ago | reply)
Sending you a big hug..... ;-)
Esther17 (68 months ago | reply)
back atcha, gail. :)
Jen SFO-BCN (68 months ago | reply)
good for you for letting go of stuff that makes you feel bad. it will get better as the days pass, we all go through these things and we all come out alive.
maddog. (68 months ago | reply)
Personally, I try to protect Larry from the problems of the real world.
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