Dear everyone,

 

I'm quitting my 52 weeks project. There are a lot of reasons, but here's the most important:

  

I drove out today to take some pictures because it was Sunday, and I "had to" for this project, and sat in my car with the rain pounding down before dragging myself out to take 4 pictures in the rain and the cold. I went into my car to warm up and try to convince myself to go back out and get something worthwhile. That was when I realized:

 

I've been going out way too often trying to force myself to take pictures. Half of the time I can't even convince myself to get out of the car, half of the time I take pictures I hate and feel terrible about and have to post the damn things anyway.

 

It's not because it's always cold, it's not because I'm always busy, which is what I've convinced myself was the problem. It's that I don't like taking pictures because I "have" to. I like to have an idea, and need to go out to make it reality.

 

I haven't gotten that feeling once since I started this stupid project.

 

I shouldn't have to force myself to take pictures: I want to want to take pictures again. I want to feel like it's okay to take bad pictures and not post a single thing if I don't want to.

 

And so that's about it. I'll still be around, and taking pictures when I feel like it, which will hopefully be often, but I've had it with forced picture-taking.

 

If you took the time to read all of this, thank you. :)

 

Jessica