I still feel....
Tonight I feel a void. I have been left over and over. I'm use to it though. Emotionally I've never been stable; always on a roller coaster ride. Happiness and anger fight like darkness overwhelming the light. My own voice echoes back as I call out in the dark silent room. The fear of the surrounding silence is chilling. It’s a familiar silence, too familiar, too close to home. I've been left too many times by people in my life to even feel it anymore.
A question was raised: "Do you enjoy pain?" and I begin to wonder; have I built a wall so high that I hide my sorrow even from myself? Numbed by the beatings of time; it's good to see my emotions through word and imagery, without them, how would I know my inner thoughts? It feels like another soul exists within me; it is a part of me and reveals itself when I go into a trance. The result is the release of emotions which are not recognized by my "normal self" until all the emotions have left the body and are born into something tangible. They haunt me at bedtime, the moment I shut my eyes complex thoughts flutter beneath my eyelids creating a wave of dreams I cannot awaken myself from.
- Extract from an 8 page very long ramble of mine
Comments and faves
حسن بن يوسف, Monday Morning Photography, sunshine the photogrl, Untitled blue, and 68 other people added this photo to their favorites.
حسن بن يوسف (48 months ago | reply)
god helps u dear chear up
the image awesome:)
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WAAW ! Luvd el ediTinG .. Pluse ma7ad enjOyz Pain =) .. NiCe Shot .. keep iT Up ;)
flyzipper (48 months ago | reply)
My wall is bigger than your wall, but I am much older, and much taller, so maybe that's to be expected.
* Honest * (48 months ago | reply)
Hi slatik and unreaachable: thank you for the kind words.
Hey big bro, whats up with us n these walls huh? need a hammer?
gadjoboy (48 months ago | reply)
you are not alone.....come on over....we'll play some music...that always helps.
* Honest * (48 months ago | reply)
I'm on my way....
Monday Morning Photography (48 months ago | reply)
from your pain very personal powerful art has emerged, you are beautiful and this work is beautiful
flyzipper (48 months ago | reply)
Hammer time.
sunshine the photogrl (48 months ago | reply)
i can really relate check out my last few pics i posted...love you "rambles" honest and thoughtprovking...
sunshine the photogrl (48 months ago | reply)
Hi, I'm an admin for a group called raw emotions, and we'd love to have this added to the group!
LEOoO_* AD (48 months ago | reply)
WAAAW Am@@@@ZInG
Tony Deifell (48 months ago | reply)
great image... very moving. and i love what you wrote.
Arty Smokes (deaf mute) (48 months ago | reply)
The enhancement of the bloodshot eye is stunning. It's real, but more so. Fabulous work.
"I miss the comfort in being sad".
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Seen on your photo stream. (?)
Forgiv3n3ss (48 months ago | reply)
really hurts!
full of pain! to the extend that when we go over our sorrows and have good times, once we remember that pain we went through and how much we suffered, we cry and our heart bleeds again!
but eh, let's dance like Zorba did!
Untitled blue (48 months ago | reply)
You have enough wisdom and knowledge to support, teach and preach the entire flickr’s community, I beg you for once in your life don’t be so generous, Use what have for yourself.
Love & Respect.
Ub.
Fiaz Tariq (48 months ago | reply)
You feel great
soleá (48 months ago | reply)
wow.... looks so real!!
fantastic
Laati (48 months ago | reply)
looks like u were emotionally abused, take it easy and look for something else to open the doors of happiness, love should always take a place but it doesn't replace everything, so enlighten ur life by knowing the things that keep u out of darkness.
El_Dimani (48 months ago | reply)
Powerful shot ... i enjoyed reading the extract :)
:gReen shajaRah: [deleted] (48 months ago | reply)
"I've been left too many times by people in my life to even feel it anymore."
*sigh*
some ppl cause pain coz they've been hurt too! and i dont understand, is it kinda revenge? (but why US?)
others enjoy torturing! causing pain is their aim, coz they were born to make life harder!
and with all what u give, nothing seems enough!
so here, they either leave, or u do! if not then u keep distance! and with all the pain distance brings along the way i always choose that! for the sake of my feelings! for the sake of what we've shared once!
nailbender (48 months ago | reply)
My dear * Honest *....I have missed you and I will try to visit more often.
Your work and words are touching.
Valerio Basili - from the beginning - [deleted] (48 months ago | reply)
eh... this is amazing!!!!
baliad (48 months ago | reply)
this is one of the most powerful images i've seen in a long time.....
esther (off) (48 months ago | reply)
I still love this, as at the first sight.
Embrace you, dearest friend.
7oO7oO (48 months ago | reply)
wow !!!!!
noqontrol (48 months ago | reply)
very strong and poetic..
fabio stachi (48 months ago | reply)
very intense!
i love it!!!
B I R D (47 months ago | reply)
I have written very little of late
preoccupations holding my time hostage
more surely than a contractor
three weeks late on the job
I have excuses for you
why the infrastructure is not done
what a cold hallway
I know abandonment
my hard drive left
with years of memories
soaked in hours
of manipulation
there was a photo of you
or your shadow
you know what I mean
do you still keep a key hidden
that fits above your breastbone
it never did work right
it hung up when turned
so you would jiggle it
up and down
till you felt it slip in
and the door would swing open
down that cold hallway
that scattered back
past the mirror
where you first saw
the blood run down
you called
and my phone was disconnected
that was not aimed at you
my contractor who was building my wall
wanted to get paid
after all of his mistakes
like the fact that it wasn't parallel
it wasn't you
I miss you
I am sorry I am gone
your parting kiss
burns my cheek
like an impulsive slap
it is just....
I don't know
I have been preoccupied
it is all I can do
to not look back
B I R D
Poem Copyright
©2008 Frederick D. Perry, All Rights Reserved
~Aphrodite (47 months ago | reply)
How did I miss this... I feel it. And wAllah I've felt it, but what to do? These pictures, these words...
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And out of pain and sorrow, stories were told. To the author they were reflections of parts unseen, to the world they were a marvel. So let them marvel, we say, let them marvel, as we dissect words unspoken and feelings untold... Perhaps out of the poisons of melancholy a medicine too is born, the root the same but the tree grows a different course. And from one floating soul to another, but a taste is enough... The butterfly knows of the cries of the wind, and what comfort it brings I do not know, only to tell you, it is with you...
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Any sorrow is an opportunity to turn to God, I feel... a call. And that's what's gotten me by. Mwa7
hamzeh masoudi (47 months ago | reply)
Wow
M.José [deleted] (47 months ago | reply)
Hi, I'm an admin for a group called This is a Perfect Shot... for me / (invite only - comment 2), and we'd love to have this added to the group!
xd360 (47 months ago | reply)
intensely honest...brave work
Seen inThis is a Perfect Shot… For me.
Eartha Goodwin (47 months ago | reply)
wow.
I hear you ...stunning and sharp.
...venting and daunted
sweet truth
kakhabad (47 months ago | reply)
very emotional.... I feel your pain as mine...
really love this image. it send me many message.
Seen inThis is a Perfect Shot… For me.
laidi.tayeb (47 months ago | reply)
ليش الحزن
Farfarm (taking a break) (47 months ago | reply)
Hi, I'm an admin for a group called ╠Art Libre-Free Art-Arte Libre-Freie Kunst-INVITED PIX ONLY, and we'd love to have this added to the group!
Muzamil Masood Mattoo (47 months ago | reply)
Speaking image.
Mosjos 南门 (46 months ago | reply)
I can't help you as I could... but i feel the same, in some way i go through the same you're ging through... i have the power to stop it but I'm still wondering how---
love
Axel Nygaard (46 months ago | reply)
wow your work is really strong. i like it!
you are invited to may space
bye.........................Axel
Je t'aime à mort (44 months ago | reply)
fav
Lucy (嘉莉) (44 months ago | reply)
i hope you are alright... :( this is such an emotional shot.
Ivanova Anna (42 months ago | reply)
wonderfully
slemsaleem (40 months ago | reply)
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SteadyasaRock (39 months ago | reply)
Hi
I have just started a group called "Strong Feeling At The
Given Moment"
And I would like for you to post this photo into my group.
I actually started the group today and Your photo here
above would be a great head start for the group.
The link for my group are below here
www.flickr.com/groups/1051818@N21/
Best Regards From
Camilla Borg
Mah-e-Nou (32 months ago | reply)
Extremely touching!
marked on my heart!
have a long distance hug darling!
~ragoon mein dortay rehnay k hum nhi qaail
~jo aankh se na tupkay tu laho kia hai?
Ann Sophiee (30 months ago | reply)
i like this pic very very much.
aeyelid* (24 months ago | reply)
great shot!,,,
Creativity+ Timothy K Hamilton (11 months ago | reply)
Wonderful placement and composition, and a powerful image in that it's different.