Pemma Ellis' photostream

There are alot of girls hyperventilating out there... One of them being a dear friend. Hence this picture.
Just taken on my webcam with curves and contrast altered slightly.

Well! Guess who hasn't picked up her camera since her last post?! Since then, I've become a part time model. And have been unbelievably busy. I've hardly got any time for myself at the moment.

My promises of amazing photography have failed flat on it's face.
I'm starting to get settled in all this so hopefully I can start again... Whilst you are all waiting with bated breath, take a look at my portfolios
www.modelmayhem.com/2128397
purestorm.com/profile.aspx?id=Pemdora
And my blog
pemdora.blog.com

ttyl Px

So, what is attractive? A symmetrical face? Well here's mine. Do I look better?

There's such an obsession on what's perfect but I don't know what perfect is.

I'm definitely obsessed with beauty, and have always wanted to model but that sort of attitude comes with an inbuilt insecurity.
'I must be better, I must be better'

And I've never been completely happy with myself.

I've got the big boobs, hour glass figure, pretty nice arse. I used to have long hair (I now regret cutting it off because I don't feel sexy anymore) but I don't have blonde hair, big blue eyes, dainty pointy nose.

I'm not what I call Generic-face.

I openly admit that I am jealous of the Generic-faces. Even the brunette ones.

My ambition to be a glamour model when I was younger was (and is) to verify that I am in fact good looking and that other people think so too.
I am one vain son of a bitch! 'I think my ego would fall right through the cracks in the floor if I couldn't count on men to slap my ass anymore'

What a funny thing society is.

But hey I'm not dissing it, I'm still signing up for editorial and character work :-P

Px

P.s. I'm going to tackle my photography really head on this next month. Really improve it ten fold hopefully. I'll develop a proper style and get to know my camera well. I'll be back in april with all my knowledge packed into a few photos. If these get a good reception from you guys I'm going to set up a website which will also involve a framing service.
I really want my photography to kick off now. I love it and if I can do something I love as a career then that would be amazing.
I need to take a break from flickr as I've become more interested in how many views etc (flashing a bit of flesh, I have found, helps) I get rather on building my style and producing work that reflects me. And tbh, I don't get enough views to justify obsessing over it.
I'll still come on here for inspiration but posting is a no go now.
Thanks guys

Well, long time no flickr eh? Just installed internet into our new home, after two months. I've been nearly dying without my internet. Suffering flickr withdrawel sypmtoms pretty badly. Cliched I know, but true.

HAPPY NEW YEAR by the way.

I have finally stopped smoking and I'm smug as. :D

Our move and the decision to move was pretty sudden. We found a wonderful place and snapped it up. Then it was a wirlwind of getting moved up and getting sorted out. Then mid jan we hit a stand still, we had moved here with no jobs and money was tight. And there seemed to be no jobs on the go. I even signed up for office recruitment. My jokes of becoming a stripper seemed less jokey!

But both of us have found jobs (albiet temporary) and we have internet! We are also very happy and in love, of course.

And horny, hence the picture ha ha.

I've had a few comments from people since I've been away so I'll have to get on them pronto and have a look through my contacts too. Can't wait to see what everyone's uploaded in the last couple of months.
Weeeeeee I'm so happeeeee!

Px

but then again I was never whole anyway.

...vanity strikes again...
I like the composition in this one better and I've used a texture over the whole thing here... I dunno, you decide which is better.