ive been going through a bit of an artistic crisis. lately ive felt like im trying to be something im not.. i dunno if its true or not, but thats how i feel right now. and i just want to be me.
however, my day was thoroughly brightened when i received a package in the mail. a very kind gentleman sent me a remote (yay! taking this picture was a piece of cake compared to normal) and a lens extender, addressed to "karrah kobus awesome photographer."
oh, and i want to explain this a little bit too, cause i feel like spine and butterfly pictures are everywhere, but this actually means something to me. and maybe i could have been a little bit more abstract in portraying this, but ive been sick for like a week and thats going to be my excuse, ha.
but when it comes to going back to being "me," the first thing i thought of is one of the experiences that makes me most unique, and that is the back surgery that i went through. i decided to make an image focusing on the spine... i altered it to appear abnormal and perhaps a bit ugly. i wanted the butterfly to symbolize an extension of the opposite. something soft and beautiful. i have a big scar on my back, but im pretty comfortable with it. so i just wanted to remember to not only accept myself, flaws and all, but embrace everything i have that is uniquely me.
i was also feeling inspired by my past as a dancer (nostalgia partially brought on by recently seeing black swan, which is super good). i miss the bright stage lights.
p.s. my goal is to get over half way by the day my 365 is supposed to be over.. yea, pretty pathetic haha. but im still only counting selfies.
quick before + after on my blog.