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It's been a while. A while since I was on flickr. And since I took photos actually.
The flickr world seems so distant and so in the past. As I wrote on my last photo in my 365 project, I don't belong here anymore. I have moved away from all of this, that once fit me perfectly.
But I still feel like I owe you guys something. I mean, some of you are still following me and has been there from the very start, two years ago. And I am and will be forever thankful for that.

I am the kind of person who needs to document my life in texts and photos, so I am not completely gone. I still have my tumblr (www.followtherivers.tumblr.com) and I am finding other ways too.

So, what's going on with me since the last time I was here? Well, it's summer. I graduated 9th grade, which is a big step in Sweden. This fall we start at new schools, schools and programs we get to apply to. I applied to a school in stockholm called Kungsholmens gymnasium, and I got in! I am so happy and excited and scared and nervous. On August 22 I start.
We had prom on my birthday and it was wonderful. My brother graduated "high school" (gymnasiet) and I got to celebrate with him on the floe that goes around town. On my graduation I cried for about an hour non-stop. Yep.

It is summer vacation now and tomorrow I leave for Halmstad. I have a house by the sea there, so I'll be spending the next two weeks there. And Alice is going to join me! After that I am going to Greece with my family for two weeks. And when I come home I am going to enjoy Stockholm. A city I have come to love. So there you have a little update on me and my life. I'll keep posting photos on flickr every now and then, I promise.

In the mean time, feel free to message me and look at my tumblr if you want to know what's going on.

Last week I was doing an internship at a café in the city. I loved doing that and the people who worked there loved me.

On thursday a boy walked in to the café. I was immediately drawn to him. I got very nervous, so I stayed in the kitchen, I didn't have the nerves to go out there and look at him. I thought it was just a one-time thing. But then, later that day, he came in again and started talking to the guy who owns the place. And then it hit me, the owner had a son. It was his son. And I thought, okay, it means something if the guy comes back, so I walked out there and I gave him a smile and introduced myself to him.

We talked for a brief moment and he made me blush, which hasn't happened in forever. Really. And that was that. But then, the next day when I was on my way to the store to buy milk to the café I saw him on the street. I smiled and waved at him, and walked in to the store with butterflies in my stomach.

I was working on that saturday. The guy, his name is Leo, came in and ordered a prawn sandwich. He sat close to the counter and gave me looks every now and then. When it was lunch time for me the owner made me a prawn sandwich too and I took it and sat down next to Leo. We started talking. I felt like I could really talk to him, and it seemed like he really enjoyed talking to me as well. I was happy I had been brave enough to sit down next to a stranger, pretty much, and have a decent conversation. And I thought that it was the end, right there.

The following night I had a dream that he called me. And when morning came I thought about it a lot and established that I would pass out if he actually called, which he of course never would.

But late that night he called. He actually called. There was a random number on the screen and I answered "Hello?" "Hi, it's Leo." I freaked. I was one second away from hanging up, but I didn't. I started talking to him. And he asked me what I was doing that night and I said I didn't know and he said he would call me if he wanted to do something. And then we hung up. I was so chocked, and it lasted for one whole hour.

When I, later that night, sat outside on my porch with my two best friends listening to music and drinking tea, he called again. I picked up, kinda overwhelmed, and he asked me if I wanted to do something with him tomorrow. I said yes. And there it is, I had planned my first real date. I couldn't sleep that night because I was so scared.

So the next day I was supposed to come in to the café to discuss working there later, so when I was there, Leo walked in. And when I was finished talking to his dad, the owner, he gave us some food in a bag and Leo and I walked around Vasastan and ended up on his rooftop, with a view over the whole city. That was so cool. It was really sunny and warm that day, and we sat there for hours talking. It would've been really romantic if I had feelings for the guy, but what I had felt before was totally gone.

He told me he wanted to ask me out on the saturday when we had lunch together, but he didn't, and that his father had given him my phone number. I was kinda freaked out, I had only known this guy for four days.

I had a good time on the roof, and it was a very cool thing to do. So I had my first date up on a rooftop in Vasastan with a guy I had only known for four days. And I felt nothing for him. And that's how I started my easter break.

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Since I am not on here a lot anymore, I feel like I owe you some stories from my life. And here is one that happened two days ago. This photo has nothing to do with the story, but okay, you get the deal. See you soon!

Follow me on tumblr: www.followtherivers.tumblr.com

This may be my favorite photo I've taken.

It's almost time for sportsbreak! I wont be sporting a lot though, on the break I want to/will
- Cuddle with Alice's puppy
- Go to a spa with mom
- Buy shoes
- Cut and color my hair
- Cuddle with Ebba's kitten
- Sew
- Reorganize my room
- Sleep
- Hang with my friends a lot
- Eat good

For my very last photo of the project, I decided to do a version of my very first photo of the project.
Here is the first photo.
So, as you can see here, I have changed. I have grown, first of all. Just take a look at my face in the two photos.
(And don't get stuck up on my eye on this photo, I know it's weird)

Also, my style in photography has changed. Maybe that's not something you can see in this photo, but look a couple of photos behind and you'll see it.
I kinda think I was better in the start of this project. I have realized why that is.
My interests has changed. I used to be a girl who lived in Sweden but tried all that she could to be "american". So the flickr world fit me perfectly back then.
But sometime during the summer, I didn't find it as entertaining anymore. I started to love tumblr more and more. And swedish hipster-photography blogs. And most of all, I started to like Stockholm. Love Stockholm.
So the flickr world didn't fit me anymore. I became less and less enthusiastic. My photos came out worse. And I am sorry that you had to see that, because that showed a pretty bad side of my photography, when I found another way of photography a lot more interesting. But I haven't really shown that here, mostly because it's hard to force it.

This project has made me grow. Not only photowise, but mostly of course.
I realized I don't belong in the flickr world. So I might not update it so often, but I wont delete it or stop completely. Promise.
This project has made me love Stockholm. For that I am forever thankful.

I chose a very good year to do this. This year, 2010 mostly, was a hectic year for me.
Everything was put on an edge for me. Everything.
So I am glad I had this to keep me sane, actually.

It's time to end this chapter of my life. The year on flickr. Time to start a new, fresh chapter.
Thank you, every single person who has ever looked at my photos, commented on them, liked them or sent me a message. Thank you so much. Without you I would be nothing. I wouldn't go on without you. You are the ones making me finish. I am proud of myself for that, so thank you for helping me all the way to the end.

You have followed my life for a year now, you have gotten sneak peaks of what my every day life looked like. So now, when I wont be around as much anymore, I thought I'd give you a list of what the rest of my year will look like. And I will expose myself a little bit now.
- On february 24th I am going to apply for "gymnasiet". I think I know where I will end up and I am so happy about the choice.
- I have recently started going to the gym, so I will go to the gym hopefully twice a week and tone my body.
- I will start baby sitting so I will make some money
- I will cut my hair and make it a bit darker
- I have a crush on my brothers friend, and on May second I am going to my brothers graduation dinner, and his friend will be there... Ih.
- I am graduating "högstadiet" in june.
- On my birthday this year we have a graduation party, what a nice way to spend my birthday, huh!
- I am going to London for the first time ever this summer. Oh how I will shop!
- I want to go see bands this summer, we'll see what...
- Alice is coming to Halmstad this summer (where I spend some time every summer) and it will be so fun!
- I am going to Greece for two weeks with my family.
- In late august I start my new school
And that's all I know right now, this is what will happen in the next chapter of my life.
Now, if you still want to hear from me often, then read my tumblr that I share with Alice.
www.followtherivers.tumblr.com

It is actually kinda sad not doing this 365 project anymore. But I am going to enjoy not HAVING to take a photo. I hated that.
Once again, thank you. Thank you for staying with me all this time.
And a big big thank you to the ones who stuck with me from day one.

Love.
Emily.