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just wanted to let you all know that i'm still alive. i'm trying to get back into the swing of things, my life's been a bit rocky for quite some time now, but it's getting better.

i know it is.

i don't interact with people for a reason. plain and simple, i don't desire to do so. is it so wrong for me to have no want to look for a person to share my mind, my heart and my words with? i don't want to look for that.
when i feel the absence of another being, i'll go looking.
but, for now,
i'm happy with myself. that's it.

i'm going through all sorts of changes in my life. i've not a single thought going through my mind that isn't scratching and clawing its way out of my mind and into reality. everything's getting caught up in a web and doesn't leave my head unless everything leaves at once. i can't think without the constant reminder of the pool inside the space between my ears. it's a plague. it's hurting me.

and i honestly don't know how to deal with it aside from just allowing things to run their course on their own.

honestly, i couldn't be any more calm.

and, I'm in love with Emily Bronte, Wuthering Heights has been the best thing that's happened to me in a while.

i don't know what i'm doing with my life.