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Buddha.
I think too much. Whatever. Nothing I can do about that. This is not a good night.
I had a dream about "Bob" last night.

"Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
I love you so
Much more when you're not here
Watchin all the bad shows
Drinking all of my beer

I don't believe Adam and Eve
Spent every goddamn day together
If you give me some room there will be room enough for two

Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight

I don't wanna wake up with another
But I don't wanna always wake up with you either
No you can't hop into my shower
All I ask for is one fuckin' hour

You taste so sweet
But I can't eat the same thing every day
Cuttin off the phone
Leave me the fuck alone
Tomorrow I'll be beggin' you to come home

Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight..."
("Leave Me Alone (I'm Lonely)" by Pink) I don't listen to her really.

My little sister has a friend over right now until about four, so for another hour or so. They aren't that loud, so I don't mind. My mother finally signed her up for drum lessons and she's getting her own drum set. She spent a lot of money on us already. I'm kinda worried about it... It's a lot of money altogether. =/ I feel bad.
I've been thinking a lot about the past lately. Well, I mean it's nothing new, but you know. Like my past with "Bob". We would have been together a year. But oh well. I'll probably see him in karate tonight. I have to teach the first half hour or so because Sensei has an intro.
You know what CD I need? "Death Magnet". Some songs are pretty damn good, but others are like, eh. I still want it, haha. Hm.... Other than thinking, nothing else has really been going on. So yeah.

"Heavy rings on fingers wave
Another star denies the grave
See the nowhere crowd, cry the nowhere tears of honor

Like twisted vines that grow
Hide and swallow mansions whole
In the light of an already faded prima donna

Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
But the memory remains

Heavy rings hold cigarettes
Up to lips that time forgets
While the Hollywood sun sets behind your back

And can't the band play on?
Just listen, they play my song
Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black

Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Dance little tin goddess..."
("The Memory Remains" by Metallica)

Yeah, so I wanted to do something else, but I couldn't get it right. UGH. I hate it when you have a specific idea in your head, but you can't get the photo to turn out the right way. I need photoshop, I know how to work it! Jeeze, Gimp isn't that good. I just downloaded it and it's confusing, but kind of like Photoshop. I don't like it.

"This is the clock upon the wall
this is the story of us all
this is the first sound of a new born child before he starts to crawl
this is the war that's never won
this is a soldier and his gun
this is the mother waiting by the phone
praying for her son

Pictures of you,
Pictures of me,
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you,
pictures of me,
remind us all of what we used to be

there is a drug that cures it all
blocked by the governmental wall
we are the scientists inside the lab just waiting for the call
this earthquake weather has got me shaking inside I'm high up and dry

Pictures of you,
Pictures of me,
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
pictures of you,
pictures of me,
remind us all of what we used to be

confess to me every secret moment
every stolen promise you believe
confess to me all the lies between us
all that lies between you and me..."
("Pictures Of You" by The Last Goodnight) I love that song.

Must.

"Watch your thoughts, for they become words.

Watch your words, for they become actions.

Watch your actions, for they become habits.

Watch your habits, for they become character.

Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny."

I'd rather be angry over being sad.

So, Happy Easter everyone! :)
That's the new dress my mom bought me yesterday. I like it :) Anyway! Today wasn't anything exciting really. I lied around most of the day until my aunt and grandmother came over and so did my brother with his puppy. We had stuffed pork chops with broccoli and garlic bread for dinner. Cheesecake for dessert :)
I haven't seen the puppy since my brother moved out of my father's house. Well, she's a dog, but I'll always give her the title of puppy :) I said she's gotten fat, but my brother insists she's "Filled out" haha.
Well anyway, now my mom is getting ready to work again, so it'll just be me and my little sister until 11.30 tonight. Oh! I like this song! "Hate My Life" by Theory Of A Deadman! Good song, haha.
So now, I have nothing to do. Hmmm... Friday I'm going over to a friend's house. "Mike"'s house. He can drive now, so I'll get a ride from him :) I just have to figure out what the hell I'm going to do the rest of the week! I love vacation, but it gets boring after a while, haha.
I should probably continue that book I'm writing... Hm.

"Feel no pain, but my life ain't easy
I know I'm my best friend
No one cares, but I'm so much stronger
I'll fight until the end
To escape from the true false world
Undamaged destiny
Can't get caught in the endless circle
Ring of stupidity

Out for my own, out to be free
One with my mind, they just can't see
No need to hear things that they say
Life is for my own to live my own way

Rape my mind and destroy my feelings
Don't tell me what to do
I don't care now, 'cause I'm on my side
And I can see through you
Feed my brain with your so called standards
Who says that I ain't right
Break away from your common fashion
See through your blurry sight

Out for my own, out to be free
One with my mind, they just can't see
No need to hear things that they say
Life is for my own to live my own way

See they try to bring the hammer down
No damn chains can hold me to the ground

Life is for my own to live my own way..."
("Escape" by Metallica from the Ride the Lightning album) GOD I love this band. Have since I was eight! Gah!
I'm still drooling over that price of CS4... If only...