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I just missed 52 days of my 365 marathon. That's about 2 month of photographing each day. I just happen to stumble here and there, as usual. Then there was this final days of Thesis. Yes, I'm done with it.

I had a bucket list of things that I will be doing after the graduation. A list starting out my portfolios, working out for few pack of abs, joining a non profit organization, freelancing and then trekking. And yep applying for Grad school for next year.

Seems like I'm not a guy who has a great potential for carrying out two many things at the same time. The solution for this chaotic problem must be to prioritize .

In my part, something always tends to happen in 17th of each month. And it did...I

I thought it was just a couple of days that I missed taking pictures but when I look back its about 10 days. I didn't abandoned this project of mine but just got into hardcore Thesis mode. We had this Dashian festive mood around town, the most celebrated and important festival of our country, but not for me. I was in my computer day to night, trying to sort out the things that needed to be completed, that needed to be tweaked and on time.
Working all day alone and concentrating on one thing had made me dull, dull in a social way. My father is here after 2 years and my brother after a year and my mom. I am use to living all alone by myself in my floor and then addition of other family member made me uncomfortable at the beginning, uncomfortable in a way I live on my own way but then I learned to settle things.

Most of the times, due to this situation of being in solitary, I keep every thing to my self. If its something to be happy, or its something to cry bout, it's always inside me. I don't often share it with people , except for few, very few. I confront my feelings to them, I confront everything. May be that's my weak point, letting them know how I feel, confronting everything. I just cant keep my things to myself when I'm with them. I get so attached to them , to those few people that it's hard to let go of them, for the reasons unknown, for the reasons that I don't have control, for the reason I cant process.

Seems like my life history of past couple of years is here in Flickr,lets say my life is life an open book. i am not conscious at all, when i write these things. I don't know how many people go through them and how many of them read it. I even don't have a slightest idea of how i am being judged by just reading these and looking at my pictures..

let's continue with my 365…full ON :):)

A note forwarded by an unkown flickr friend few years back

Hey Sagar,

We have all been there its called growing up and it's the most painful thing to many, the trick is don't!
Be wise enough to remain a child at heart but accept responsibilities/loss as learning experiences for we cannot appreciate pleasure without first understanding what pain is.
You are so unique that in all time that there will be there will be only one of you, you were created to be here now and what is, was meant and what will come, will be.
Open your heart and free your mind.

Regards

Hugh

After that very last red vertical line of jammed up schedule..I'm officially a graduate.

I just couldn't take a single picture for bout 2 or 3 days in a row..Reasons unknown
But I 'm continuing with the 365.....yep I m cheating