Elana Hyun's photostream

Haven't done a pic in awhile..
Dico is such an amazing person who tells it like it is

*Of course this isn't my pic.. whoever created it..it belongs to them*

I haven't been on sl for awhile, I have to say sorry to the few in SL that I did and out with and were close with. I don't mean to be selfish. Truth be told, I thinkabout you guys a lot, but every time I use SL these days, I just feel empty.
I miss SL, but to speak from my heart.. I don't find SL to be fun.. I feel so empty when I log in. I used to feel so creative and happy.. I was so carefree in sl taking pics, and meeting friends... even thought I had met someone interested in me..and at one point, I became so excited to log in just so I could talk to HIM that was the best feeling.. having someone who thought you were special. Logging in I am reminded of how foolish i was and the time i wasted waiting for that person to come online so I could say good morning, waiting for 2am my time to talk to them.. when they woke up..waiting for work to be finished to log into sl and have conversation..skype ect.
I'm reminded constantly of the foolish mistakes I made.. and the person who hurt me. Most times now when i log in friends are not online.. that's my fault as i can't really log in during my friends times, so SL is pretty lonely when they aren't around...I guess i became selfish, and just hid away.. but I'm just tired in SL.. tired of the people hurting others, tired of the stealing, and constant drama.. am I just seeing only the ugly now? I can still take pictures... but.. just no more creativity coming from me...I don't know if i can ever get it back
I feel, sad, mad, and like a fool. I may not be around but to those that were there for me, thanks! I'm not the best person... in fact I guess I'm pretty awful friend, but I think about you guys all the time.
Not sure when I'll be in SL but it seems like plurk has been a better way for me to keep track of friends soI'll use that for awhile
So sorry for this rant.. sorry for being selfish, sorry for being stupid and uncaring.. sorry for not being around.. It is just taking me extra long to get back on my feet

久しぶりに人を待った。結局相手は来なかった。連絡が取れず、ずっと待っていた。待ちながら考えた。いつまで待つのか？時間が経つにつれ希望は諦めに変わって行く。諦めているのにそれでも希望を持っている。切ない気持ちになる。英語にすると”SAD” になってしまうけれど、もっと複雑な気持ちだ。待たせる事が平気な人には多分理解が出来ないだろう。怒りの感情は不思議とない。だからやっぱり”SAD” に近いのかな？気がついたら夜が明けていた。