The End

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    hi everybody

    so here is the ending to the story

    im a happy young lady now
    i stopped mirtazapine and diazepam, and i have not self harmed for a long time, with no intention to restart.
    i have a boyfriend now who is just the sweetest thing on earth and is an angel to me
    so here is a picture of me from a vacation me and him took together recently
    there are my scars on my right arm, but they are now old and rapidly fading.

    i would say 2010 has definitely been the hardest year of my life so far, in the last 12 months experienced melancholic depression, becoming sectioned for extended period of two months, stillbirth (witnessed, no seeing a dead and motionless sister right there is not nice, for those who like to be disrespectful...) which became complicated and lead to immediate surgery, septecemia of mother, major 'friend' loss due to all of the above, extended hospital outpatient care for 10 months, had first ever seizures during summer, developed at least daily migraine (with aura, visual disturbances, smelling metallic/burning which i still have now without headache oddly) for 30ish days > which lead to hospitalisation on an emergency basis with MRI scan and EEG (luckily i am all clear and ruled then as symptoms related to depression.. ),two suicide attempts i will not go into that now though.

    however through all of it stuck my dearest <3 we were not "official" then and its so happy to be able to say we are now...

    this year looks set to be opposite, i have never felt so happy lately, and i have recently been contacted by a couple who wish me to be their au pair for a year, with my own apartment in helsinki and in easy distance of my boyfriend ! so...

    how times do change ...

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