mystical child's photostream

first off something important :
if i added you as a contact it means i am drawn into the creativeness and/or honesty and/or am inspired by your images. i try to get around to see everyone's images, but it can be hard to make comments sometimes, so forgive me if i seem un-attentive, it is not a reflection of my appreciation for your work, i just get busy/hermit like from time to time.
if i added you as a friend it's because i REALLY am impressed by your skills and/or personality. if i added you as family that's because there may be images i don't share with everyone.
that said, let us speak of other things.. of shoes and ships and sealing wax......


i try to make my profiles entertaining as well as informative.. so all the images (if you click on them) will open another window containing something related to that particular image, just in case you decide to explore a little more into what i am all about....

i change the details about me all the time
i am always growing, expanding... hopefully for the better
so this space gets information added to, and deleted from often :)
but some things always stay the same...


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my photos are not great, i see all your images and i know what greatness is, but they are true and shine golden-silver to my sense of honesty. i could wish you find something you like in my vision and share yours with me

i'm a photographer, even if it's only in my own mind.
i appreciate it deeply when people like my photos and so many people have touched me by commenting on my work :)
i have set up a portfolio page as well as this, some photos are on both but if you want to check it out it's at: www.flickr.com/photos/95591653@N00/

i will not feel badly if you wish to not comment on my photos
and i don't make comments to get them in return :)
in fact i'd rather you didn't comment if you don't feel like it.

if you can't play nice, or if you do not have an icon, images or a profile and you fave any of my photos, you WILL be blocked. (unless i know you personally) i do not work hard on my vision so people can "fave collect". i find that the majority of people that are not sharing on here but adding loads of images as favorites, are passing others' work off as their own... or in some cases, something even worse. if you are on the level, i apologize... but i can't make exceptions. ask and you can use any image of mine as you wish... except passing it off as your own of course ;]


at this moment in time i am searching for something more within myself... something of truth yet undiscovered. my life is a decent one, i do not lack anything in the way of wants and needs, but in me there is always something more to readjust, to correct, to work on, to discover.

i do have dreams and aspirations i would love to see fulfilled.
my house is a complete mess and i would be loathe to let anyone in my domicile, but who cares!? i don't want anyone over anyway. i am a hermit at heart you know :) i am surrounded by animals and that makes my heart warm. i live in a house with 3 dogs 3 cats 8 rats a turtle and a plethora of fishies. yet i wish i had more room so i could bring more darlings in. i believe my house wouldn't be as much of a horrible mess if i didn't have so many now, but i do not know, alas i am a lazy housekeeper. such is the way of life, at least my life

i have my photography a couple of people i hold closely to my heart that i get to see fairly often and my own sense of humor


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i enjoy it when someone makes me feel uncertain about myself, not many people can but those who do probably know who they are.... it makes me discover something more about myself, and forces me to realize i don't have everything as together as i think i do ;]

people... sometimes i see other people and wish my own life wasn't so devoid of human contact. this doesn't happen often, nor last long, for i do find completion within myself... but every now and then i long to share my world with more than just the couple who do now. there are many people who seem likely candidates, but the interest in me fades soon after they realize i am not more than i claim to be and that there are certain things in my life that are mine alone... things i do not compromise.

i'm probably not what you think i am, i'm not that woman, that person.i'm more self absorbed than you may perceive, the person i communicate most with, identify most with is myself. that probably sounds strange, but it's truth. i get me. it would probably true for everyone when it comes down to it, but i've done a lot of pondering about people and i don't think most of us know ourselves as well as we think we do...
it's amazing when we discover something new about ourselves isn't it? maybe i'm just to focused on trying to discover more in me, when i've come to know so much already that i don't see the obvious. or perhaps it's just that i try to ignore the world around me....
either way it amounts to the same thing.

i'm not a threat or a promise to anything, if someone wants to be a part of my life i will let them, and take them wholeheartedly in. however, it seems people want to blaze a glorious trail into my life and then move on when something more interesting comes along. or because i am not able to be THAT person. you know the one. THAT person who gives you something you have been missing, THAT person who accepts anything you have to dish out. i am rarely THAT person so i'm used to the fickleness of people who are still searching.
i'm quite negative about human relationships right now, all of them. it seems everyone demands what i cannot give. so i probably will refuse to get close to many if any.
would you expect me to blindly accept things you do, just for the sake of supporting you when it goes against my morals? would you expect me to let go of my sense of right and wrong? would you expect me to not voice my opinion when it differs from yours?
i will not do these things for anyone.

i am an INFJ personality type, i do not identify much with my zodiac sign, but my personality type is right on the money which intrigues and interests me much... i am The Protector/Counselor

this image says much about me

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i hate crowds and people in general as they tend to be annoying and unintelligent. i am, however, a people watcher (when i actually notice people) and its amazing what people will say or do when they think no one is paying attention. Human nature is disturbing and often a disgusting thing...

i try not to assume much, and since things can be taken so many different ways i will dig deeper until i know exactly what someone or something really means. plus, people can be so bloody vague about what they really mean so i tend to ask a lot of questions, and get other view points on things. i don't say things like "Hitler was a good leader." to anger people, for shock value or even because i condone and believe in what he did,(I'm an equal opportunity hater, I'll hate you for WHO you are, not WHAT you are) but because its the truth and that cannot be denied. In fact, i'd like to take over the world one day, but i have no motivation and it's more of a "group" project besides i don't think i want that kind of pressure.

i am a believer of feelings. Trusting my instincts and perceptions is rarely wrong (and when it is i will admit it). i explore with my mind, with my intuition, every circumstance and situation. like feelers i test out people and places to ensure they "feel" right. usually my first take on things is spot on, but at times it takes a little conversation or learning to support or disprove my initial take on things.
this also expands into dreams. dreams give us information about ourselves, our lives and our world. however, this information cannot be determined by a book or another person.
dreams are as personal as our views, so i believe only we can determine what our dreams are telling us.

there are those few chosen that I've made my own, friends, i suppose, and I'm quite loyal to them and expect the same in return. i'm choosy about those i consider my friends, but thats because i don't take them for granted once i take them to heart...

i am not an unkind person, but I tend to be a little thoughtless at times. i spend way too much time in my head and that leads me to ignoring somewhat the world around me. unfortunately, this includes people. i do and say things that i do not mean as insensitive nor rude, but i have often offended people and hurt my friends. my imagination is always running and when I'm adding a paragraph to my book, writing a poem or planning a photo i can be a little short with others. It is something i am working on daily.

i'm a firm believer that what a person does and how they act is more important than how they look. i do not consider anyone "ugly" in a physical sense, probably because until iget to know someone i tend not to pay attention to them anyway, and if i do it's with general mild annoyance. But once i see part of their personality i can deem them "ugly" or "beautiful". i probably don't like most of the people this world considers "beautiful"... But I'm ok with that, only means those of real substance i get to myself.......

as you may have deduced, i am an imaginative person. i always have been, since i was a child i lived in worlds of my own creation. This has not diminished just because i have grown up. I'm a day dream believer and i always experience the world through my imagination. i do not force reality and my dreams to become one, so i often seem distant and unobservant. Which is probably a correct assessment. Sometimes what's in my head is just so much more interesting but that isn't fair to those who share my life closely and i attempt to live more in reality than in my imagination.


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i'm content in my world, as i've created it. One of my mottoes is: "Yes, I’m happy in my own little world, they know me here." The sky is still blue in my world; don't think i have my head in the clouds all the time. i tend to be wicked and have an evil streak that shows it’s self on occasion, but i'm not malicious usually, not saying i haven't been or i can't be... My ideals tend to be set so high that not even i can reach them, but i accept my faults and others and the reality of life does not escape me.

i'm sarcastic, have a bit of a temper and can get very cynical (although i view it as being a realist.) i've been accused of being mean and cruel, but that doesn’t bother me like the people who've said it might want it to.
i'm satisfied with who i've become as a person, and although there are things i'd like to change,or better about myself, i don't hate the bad things in me, rather, i embrace them as a definition me.

i often seem neutral or apathetic about things, and sometimes i truly couldn't care less, but most often its not that i don’t care about something, its just i can’t be bothered with it..... i don't mean that to be rude but i can't start a movement for everything, so i see no point in getting up in arms about it.

i'm an animal conservationist at heart, and adore sharks with a passion. they are simply adorable to me and i treasure any chance i have to see one.
i am suspicious of people in general, and a lot conservation organizations piss me right off, but there are a few that have quietly impressed me and those i can get behind in a heart beat. WWF is a good one and i donate to it as regularly as i can.

Jeff Corwin is my hero.


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i'm Agoraphobic and have Social Anxiety, .i go out in public but I hate everything about it, and at any given moment i can start to feel closed in and start to panic. This is most true of places i am not familiar with..usually i try to have someone with me, it tends to help a little.It seems the older i get the more it takes to get me out of the house.


i hate the sun, not because i'm dramatic, i know it's essential for some, it just zaps my energy and makes me tired and weak...

i've recently been diagnosed with diabetes, but i won't let that get me down, i've expected a long while now, as i have a female condition that makes me more likely to become diabetic. so i've been prepared mentally. the hard part will be doing all the things i need to do to take care of myself, but i have a doctor that calls herself 'the blood sugar nazi' and many people to help me, so i know i will be able to get into the habits i need to.

who wants to be perfect anyway? that would just get boring. Screwing up and having issues with yourself makes life interesting, besides everyone else is just as, if not more messed up than i am anyway...

i am picky about nearly everything i'm into. This comes from me being a very modest person, something i like about myself. i do not like many of the motion pictures of today, most of them amount to simple dumbed down movies that are full of sex and killing. i am attracted to films, books, television shows that have a level of intellect, a little comedy and sometimes bad acting. B movies are a passion of mine, i enjoy the humor in the horror and have quite a growing collection of fun, silly and very badly done flicks. They please me. i also look for a degree of modesty in my television watching, while i watch, and enjoy, a lot of the programming on cartoon network's [adult swim] i also like the old-fashioned programs that speak of better times when men were men and women were women.... or something like that. Basically, i'm of the opinion that sex and violence are mostly over-rated for entertainment purposes, if that's all i was interested in i'd watch the news....
what it comes down to, is i like my sex and violence cleverly done...you know the kind...or you don't...but, since that kind of sleaze is a rare thing these days, i don't appreciate most forms of entertainment. it just strikes me as dumb and are just more reasons my imaginings are SO much more entertaining.


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I love music that "speaks" to me...that moves me in ways nothing else can, and i adore artists from Mozart all the way up to many modern bands. Unfortunately, i have no talent in the areas of actually playing anything, but enjoy hearing other's talent anyway. i do enjoy singing at the top of my lungs though, even if it's done badly ;]

Honesty. It's all about honesty. i'm all about honesty. i treasure Honesty in others, and strive to be Honest in all things myself. That doesn't mean i am with out tact. I know how to phrase things appropriately, but sometimes direct Honesty is the only course of action. i try not to be cruel in my Honesty, and sometimes my mouth gets me in trouble. But, i still attempt to stay Honest to myself while showing consideration of others.

if you've read all this
wow and thanks





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"They say a dream takes only a second or so, and yet in that second a man can live a lifetime. He can suffer and die, and who's to say which is the greater reality: the one we know or the one in dreams, between heaven, the sky, the earth in the Twilight Zone."