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i am me, most of the time
and sometimes i'll be who ever i want to be

and occasianly i'll be asleep

i live in on the south coast of england in a lovely regency town full of strange beauty, i seek nothing but interest and anecdote from life, and i am lucky to have such an abundance.

i like to skate and sing, to wander along the beach, to read anything that's ever been printed, my mind will often become transfixed with a Handel Oritorio and my eyes might just become fixed on some tight muscular butt.

I live to live and love to laugh and belive that scandal is compassionalte to the dull, i torment anyone who is full of fear and bully the bullies, i like to think to anyone else i am either an inspiration or a bore.

i am queer and unavaliable and kind of like it that way, am learning all the time and forgetting too.

Being gay is part of whom i am, i am a romantic cynic, a lovless lover, a man who is both vunerable and impregnable, a cute mass of contradictions, but i try not to take myself too seriously. I like being gay, it makes life so much more interesting.

i like having pictures taken of me, rather than taking them myself. Ego is in the 'I' of the beholder.

I am welsh born and bred, and come from a small but very beuatiful town in the deepest welsh valleys, this has given me a sence of joy to my daily life. The still green beuaty of the valleys is a solace and an inspiration, and also a prison. There is no horizon to gaze out at, and all mountains can be stood upon, thus i live next to the sea, so i can gaze out over the ripples of the silver sea and wonder at the horizon.

i share what i like, but protect my privacy. my intimate moments are not for shareing.

i seek no ones approval but am honest enough to notice my occasionaly craving for attention, but hey! i can also make modesty into a crime

i am most at peace on my skates, rolling along the endless promonade of Brighton or stuck somewhere private with my nose in a good book

i have time for everyone, especialy those who look most sad and shy, for those are the ones that can blind and shine after the application of a little soft polishing.


i work hard and have a few interesting jobs, i am lucky that my work provides me with both interesting and challenging situations. I work for a HIV charity called the Terrance Higgins Trust, for a Partnership saftey team dealing with Hate Crime and it's effects and also have another life as comedian and writer, they all fit well together and allow me to be both hard and soft, firm and weak, sensible and silly, clever and stupid, challanging and accepting and most of all learn, all the time.


i would die without learning, probaly by my own hand, possibly in some archaic and romantic way too, he he he
i can learn things from everyone and everyplace and recall most of it, it's both a curse and blessing


I am lucky and i know it, and i do not have time to count my blessings.

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