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Hhhmm... Let’s see… I’m a woman. I’m female. I was born a girl and turned into a woman. And I’m all that comes with that. I’m soft, not hard. I’m emotional, not stoic. I’m pretty, not handsome. I’m a daughter, not a son. I’m a girlfriend, not a boyfriend. I’m emotional, not stoic. Wow…this is getting confusing.

But I like lists, so I’m going to start there.

1. In 1984 I became a daughter. At first as a baby I was dependent on everyone. Then I became more independent and feisty. I pushed, and I challenged. I blamed, and then forgave.

2. While a daughter I became a musician. Hahaha I may say a frustrated musician (forget it)

3. I am crazy, adventurous, sensitive, impulsive. Who fears being worthless

3. I am a college graduate, and I started a career. But I have a strong feelings that my path might move in a different direction.

4. I’m a girlfriend. I have few friends, which includes one to whom I am very close. I talk in person, and loathe the phone. I go to lunch, cocktail hours, and playgroups. I support, and I lean. I offer suggestions when asked, and stay silent when they are not. I love, and receive it in return.

5. I’m soft, and I’m emotional. I love that fact that as woman, whether this be a sexist value or not, that I have cart blanche to express my emotions freely. I will not be judged if I cry at a movie, or if I laugh too loudly at a joke. I can freely express love and hate, and can express dreams of well, more emotion! And emotional is definitely a trait that applies to me.

In the future I hope to add many more experiences, all of which will change me probably forever.

1. I hope to one day, become a wife, a mother myself. Do the household chores and enjoy children in a whole new light.

2. I’m looking forward to becoming, a parent.

3. I think perhaps, that I might someday start a new career.

4. At one point I will become like my parents, the oldest generation of the family. I know this is coming, and will affect who I am, but I hope it isn’t too soon.

Perhaps all of this is who I am and how I define/describe myself. I think so.